What's happened to disillusion you Baco? I remember a few months ago you clued me in on Neurals and seemed cheerily involved with the rest of us in the battle with the bookies. Hell, I'm almost tempted to venture down off the mountain here to the lowlands you inhabit to give you a good stern talking to.
I know I have a session about once a week when I hit a losing streak and say "Stuff this, it's not worth the aggravation". and it's made that much worse by the thought that all the time and effort I've put into it would be wasted. Still the law of averages comes back into my favour later and once again I love the punt.
That's one bad thing about the punt, however good you are there will always be rough spots and if (like me) you take these things to heart, depression, or at least wondering if it's all worth it, is just a few bad photo finishes away.
Take a step back mate, have a break and ask yourself if you can still enjoy the punt, maybe with less commitment. It can be fun, maybe if you don't take it too seriously.

KV